Update: I have news, i finally went to the doctor yesterday, and find out that i am stressing out, I'm not pregnant. As much as i would love to be, but right now is not a good time for me. because i am getting ready to start school. and will be moving at the end of the month. i just put in my 30 day noticed. It's a lot for me to handle right now. What i need to do is relax and i will be fine. Since no one gave me advice what i should do. it's okay... I actually feel free right now. I just hope that someday i can experience being a parent. maybe after i am done with school. we'll see how things go.....
miscarriages: I suffered two miscarriages years ago. my first pregnancy i was expecting twins, but four months later i miscarried. I don't know why and don't understand why. But my second miscarriage i was only two months. and this one really hit me hard. I always wanted to be a parent. and i hope someday soon, that god and Jesus will give me and Javier a chance to be great parents...
And now i still hurt about my miscarriages... i always think about my kids, and i know that they are in heaven with god and Jesus and my family. I feel it in my heart that my grandparents are watching out for them. I miss all them. they are everything to me... and will be missed.
I finally have a good doctor, (obgyn) to help me, Dr. Desanto, He told me the reason why i miscarried. and he can help me when i do become pregnant. I have my next check up later this month... anyways that's enough for now...
talk soon....
